My thoughts...My mind...

2011-11-16T03:58:00.000+05:30

The music in my veins escapes,

Pushes me closer to the edge...

Into a spiral so deep,

A sanctum spiral of the truth I live for.

2011-11-10T16:56:00.002+05:30

Zindagi ki saasein tham jaaye,

Hawaaon ka rukh badal jaaye,

Ek saanjh aur beet jaaye,

Bas kuch alfaazon ke taley...

2011-11-10T02:10:00.003+05:30

The ice above never stands still,

It melts and flows down as it always will.

The water touches all along it's way,
Turning the hardest stones to clay.

Giving life to those who need it,
Taking from those who ill-treat it.

Words are just like a river,
Making an atheist a believer.

But, as the river loses itself in the sea,
So do words, as they lose themselves in love and defeat.

2011-09-12T00:28:00.003+05:30

Belief is what was and will always be,
None to take or steal away.
The road less travelled and felt,
The road, astray.

My Body Is A Cage...

2011-03-19T13:23:00.002+05:30

The cross bleeds,

Staining the ground below.

The aura soothes many,

As time and matter slow.

Devout are a few,

True, fewer, as the world goes.

The mind loses all bearing,

As soon as the eyes close.

Some bow to God,

Some pray to many-a-sage.

I do not wish to hope,

For my body is a cage....

2011-01-26T22:15:00.002+05:30

Bent over and bruised,

Staring down, waiting to fall.

The blood on my brow is testament,

Trying to break down every wall.

Confinement is the enemy,

Inspiring a looming dark.

Shunning away the light yonder,

The contrast on each side so stark.

A clenched jaw and fist I hold,

Commanding the heavens above.

The elements follow my mind,

As I pull myself up and breathe this love.

2010-12-21T12:32:00.002+05:30

None to blame but myself,

For the destiny that lives.

Simplicity and comfort wanted,

Which nobody really gives.

Not a whimper, no tear,

As I fall down the gorge.

The dark and cold stones that narrate,

The moments that forge.

Myriad thoughts like flashing lights,

Confuse and make me blind.

Trapped and suffocating,

Withered in the ruins of my mind.

Forgetting the past

2010-11-28T18:07:00.004+05:30

The smoke billows around,

Swirling and pushing me forth.

I stand by the waters,

That caress my soul.

As I enter a cold ocean,

The waves draw me deep.

The sounds bring a trance,

Lulling me to sleep.

The moon and stars shine down,

Upon me as I stare up at the sky.

The blood of my past, the sins stay,

No matter how hard I try...

Searching for an answer

2010-11-27T02:33:00.004+05:30

An empty room with walls,

No window to stare through.

The four hold me steady,

And keep from being untrue.

I walk across and sit,

Closing my eyes to see.

An uneven cold surrounds,

Slowly settles into me.

The search for answers,

Is always hard and slow.

I spend aeons just looking,

As my inhibitions grow.

I frantically dig the dirt,

As my nails wither and crack.

The past remains buried,

Resolve is what I lack.

Unclear are the thoughts,

That loom beyond and now.

All around me is darkness,

Into me I allow.

It soothes me and liberates,

Fills me with all that never was.

The winds blow in a windowless room,

I'm no longer with no cause...

Hope...

2010-11-22T18:28:00.002+05:30

We mere mortals,

Live each moment in fear.

Trudging along each day,

Looking past each tear.

The world around changes,

Rapidly and undesirably so.

We make bad choices,

As our lives, away we throw.

There lies the key,

To avoid this systematic anguish.

Breaking away from it all,

For peace we languish.

Another day passes,

Through uncertainty we grope.

Truth be told

I hope for hope....

Walking into the night...

2010-10-21T14:43:00.005+05:30

Past the upmost tip,

Where the hands join each other.

As the moon rises and silence falls,

Life against the quiet I'd rather.

Passing sights desolate and quiet,

I feel the peace grasping me.

Winds and calm render music to my senses,

And set my soul free.

Many say it's unnatural,

But nothing seems so right.

Than leaving the confines and comforts behind,

To walk away into the night.

Been a while since I wrote,

The heart makes me pen each line.

These are mere words dwell within,

As I sit sanguine...

2010-02-14T00:23:00.003+05:30

A silence rife in the air,

As I stand all alone.

The truth evades me,

As I drown out the drone.

The leaves swirling at my feet,

The skies are going dark.

The mist gathers around me,

Killing the tiniest spark.

I rise up to the challenge,

And die to be free.

I never walk alone,

Because my shadow’s always with me...

2010-02-12T15:26:00.002+05:30

As every day passes,

And the moments are lost.

I am gripped by the cold,

In this hazy frost.

A hope to pull through,

A desire to smile.

A wish to live,

For myself, for a while.

The miles that separated,

No longer exist or bind.

But what still keeps away,

Is the distance in the mind...

2010-02-11T13:14:00.001+05:30

I need a reason,

To stop and look back.

Something to believe in,

To forget the pain I have had.

I have been bound by a spell,

I can't see myself through.

Caught in this trap of delusion,

I've lost myself, and lost you too...

2010-01-15T17:24:00.005+05:30

A slew of events,

The end of a lifetime.

A part of my life,

That went down trying.

A point which has come,

Where I turn around.

And face all that blinded,

Listen to all those sounds.

Somewhere I feel calm,

Breathing my own air.

A complication that's broken,

I stand without care.

A love that never was,

A life that never could be.

A world that has left me,

Leaving me true and free...

2009-12-15T02:50:00.003+05:30

These words I say,

Don't take the pain away.

They just distract me enough,

To get through another day.

The tears I cry,

Don't help relieve the darkness within.

They make me strong,

And tell me that I am still human.

How crude and real my thoughts are now,

How I analyse every day and hour.

So I don't make any more mistakes,

I am not a sadist or coward.

What the world thinks of me,

Does not really matter much.

I know who I am, myself,

I know the truth, I alone can touch...

2009-12-14T04:23:00.010+05:30

Distance and time are supposed to heal,
Not hurt evermore.
To make hearts grow fonder,
Not to make eyes sore.

But the truth is always different,
From convention and fiction alike.
Its not the same, not close,
Every moment a sorry plight.

Creating newer reasons everyday,
Compelling myself to live this through.
Just another day that's gone,
Failing to be the start of something new...

2009-12-02T13:57:00.001+05:30

Quotes unquote,

As the days go by.

All's forgotten,

As the tears now dry.

Crushed and broken,

From moments past.

Unnerved and alone,

It's all a farce.

Can't seem to remember,

How to smile.

This is not how it's meant to be,

It's been a while...

2009-11-29T03:28:00.005+05:30

I stay up each night,

In hope of a word or two.

Wanting to know you again,

Watching, waiting for you.

No matter how tough it is,

To deal with time this way.

I hold my stead,

Dreaming of a better day.

Closing up all roads,

With every stride.

Alone at heart,

None by my side...

2009-06-17T01:48:00.002+05:30

A long way I’ve come,

Through brash decisions and regret.

Summing my days up,
Anticipating moments I’ve dread.

Closure comes from within,
But not to me, it doesn’t.
It’s lost somewhere down the line,
Somewhere, it musn’t.

Real feelings and emotions trapped,
Behind this facade they hide.
With none to understand what I go through,
Alone, I ride....

2009-06-07T03:55:00.002+05:30

An open window, slowly closing,
Plunging my world into the dark.
Shutting the light from streaming in,
Showing me reality stark.

Confusing this sense of being,
Making me wonder what is true.
What’s right, what’s wrong,
What’s required for me to do.

As I’m left by myself,
Grasping for air within.
This window is closing quick,
Telling me I’ll never win...

2009-06-07T03:55:00.001+05:30

Lone yet together,
For days and days to come.
Extending to forever,
No matter how tiring the run.

Clueless days and impatience,
Commanding into being numb.
Every night a sweet dream,
Brightness outshining the sun.

Random memories pass by,
Inking a trail on their way.
Hold strong, hold high,
For tomorrow’s a brighter day....

2009-06-07T03:54:00.000+05:30

Aimlessly staring around,
Awaiting destiny’s call.
Life is loosening its grip,
Letting me go, letting me fall....

2009-06-07T03:53:00.001+05:30

A faint feeling that numbs,
Makes me thoughtless and empty.
Closing me into darkness,
A painless sense of resenting.

The rhythm of the world that is,
Ticks by with every passing night.
Complicated, this situation,
So wrong, yet so right.

I have to wait this out,
No other option that I have yet.
The opportune moment when alive,
A leap of faith to make...

2009-06-07T03:47:00.002+05:30

Strumming these strings,
Penning for some space.
Just mulling over and over,
Trying to find solace.

Seen enuf, heard enuf,
Beat around it and thot over.
Done everything possible to help it,
Realized I was nowhere closer….

2009-04-04T22:24:00.004+05:30

A new dream i see,
With eyes glistening in wait.
A new reality to be,
A leap of faith to take.

The breeze rustling my hair,
Caressing me, slowly passing by.
The sun setting across the sands,
The beauty of it seeming to be a lie.

The trees swaying and whispering,
Canopying me into shade.
Sparks that rise, brighten my heart,
As the lights seem to fade.

It's those fading lights that push me on,
That dream that keeps me going.
In the face of growing adversity,
I feel my heart gradually slowing....

A traveller, I walk....

2008-12-02T02:40:00.005+05:30

A traveller i walk,
Endless, the path i tread.
Lined by shedding autumn trees,
My steps will never cease.

The questions keep complicating,
Running circles in my thoughts.
Constantly finding answers to these,
My steps will never cease.

The pain starts to set,
As the path becomes longer.
Carrying me on bent knees,
My steps will never cease.

The eventual aim of my travel,
Is to go uphill, where I can be on top.
I struggle to climb as I wheeze,
But my steps will never cease.

I will reach the absolute pinnacle,
And guard my position there.
Forever on my quest for inner peace,
My steps will NEVER cease....

A bloody conflict

2008-11-29T14:56:00.004+05:30

And so it ends....after almost 60 gruelling hours of siege and war, the trial of courage and sheer resolute is finally over. But not before it has left over 150 dead, over 300 injured, and more than a billion scarred and shoved into thinking, "Are we safe?" Every time this question arises we answer it with an affirmative. But hardly has any time passed, than there occurs another incidence that questions our very security. Is it so very simple to launch an all-out attack on morality on the grounds of religion?
We Indians have had sentiment and fear at the core of our culture for many years now. And I feel that today is the day we need to change this culture to make our own future safer. We need to take a firm stand and not fear all that has happened. Instead we should learn a lesson from it. This lesson should be to be proactive with security measures and not reactive. As Mr. Ratan Tata fairly said, there is a lack of an infrastructure in case of crises like these. Let these words be a testimony of our wants. And we want to feel safer. Not simply because we want to, but because we deserve to.
These three odd days of carnage, ending in the wee hours of morning of November 29th, 2008, bear an eery chill and will always be remembered as the time where Mumbai was shocked into being helpless, holed up in their homes, with nothing but an overwhelming sense of fear and discontent in our hearts.
Nevertheless, we pay homage to all those who suffered and are no more among us, be it the innocent, or those trying to save the innocent. This tribute goes out not as an individual appeal, but as that of a nation languishing in the anarchy of political systems and awaiting a sense of real freedom....

2008-11-01T01:02:00.004+05:30

What the past has had to offer,
Has gone by and gone away.
The present presents a world,
That might not be ours to say.

All in all we are lost within us,
In the labyrinth of life.
There's complications that bar us,
Our thoughts create a strife.

And instead of helping matters,
We do not bother about what's now and what's done.
Trying to pry open the future with morbid curisoity,
We want to figure out what is to come.

From the past we learn,
And implement today.
We record our mistakes,
To understand them and mend our ways.

What's left to come is beyond us,
Not in our control.
Be yourselves, live today like there's no tomorrow,
Release your senses, your mind, your soul...

2008-10-28T15:26:00.002+05:30

Traversing across the sands of time,
As myriad thots run and skip across my mind.
So much that i want, so much i plead for,
A world of my own, a better life that i want to find.

Smothered in darkness, a blissful hell,
With nowhere to go, lost and feeling low.
A thousand emotions surround me,
I wonder which ones i should really show.

None to trust, none to sigh,
None's shoulder near to cry.
Its a lone world, and an alone path,
Through the cold winds, alone i fly...